Gina Update 050411

I was sad to find out recently that an amazing man of God passed away in a tragic car accident. Rev. David Wilkerson was the founding pastor of  Times Square Church in New York City, author of the well-known book The Cross and the Switchblade and very involved in the program Teen Challenge.

He had posted a recent blog and the title was, “When All Means Fail” that are so incredibly worthy of our attention and here they are now…

“To believe when all means fail is exceedingly pleasing to God and is most acceptable. Jesus said to Thomas, “You have believed because you have seen, but blessed are those that do believe and have not seen” (John 20:29).

Blessed are those who believe when there is no evidence of an answer to prayer—who trust beyond hope when all means have failed.

Someone has come to the place of hopelessness—the end of hope—the end of all means. A loved one is facing death and doctors give no hope. Death seems inevitable. Hope is gone. The miracle prayed for is not happening.

That is when Satan’s hordes come to attack your mind with fear, anger, overwhelming questions: “Where is your God now? You prayed until you had no tears left. You fasted. You stood on promises. You trusted.”

Blasphemous thoughts will be injected into your mind: “Prayer failed. Faith failed. Don’t quit on God—just do not trust him anymore. It doesn’t pay!”

Even questioning God’s existence will be injected into your mind. These have been the devices of Satan for centuries. Some of the godliest men and women who ever lived were under such demonic attacks.

To those going through the valley and shadow of death, hear this word: Weeping will last through some dark, awful nights—and in that darkness you will soon hear the Father whisper, “I am with you. I cannot tell you why right now, but one day it will all make sense. You will see it was all part of my plan. It was no accident. It was no failure on your part. Hold fast. Let me embrace you in your hour of pain.”

Beloved, God has never failed to act but in goodness and love. When all means fail—his love prevails. Hold fast to your faith. Stand fast in his Word. There is no other hope in this world.”

I so love the message above because it’s so very real and such an encouragement. It’s been a rough week back from the abyss to a faithful walk with my Maker and I’m just now able to come up for air.

I didn’t know that it would be like this… having to hold onto Jesus by way of bloody fingernails. No one I know really ever told me although when I look in my Bible  it’s clearly there when you look at the lives of faithful servants of God. Somehow I missed it or perhaps I didn’t ever really connect with the examples that God so graciously laid before me if times got tough.

Things to be thankful for:

The semester has started and my course on Narcoterrorism is keeping me busier than I had ever imagined. I’m becoming an expert on global narcotic distribution across the Golden Triangle (Burma, Laos, and Thailand) and the Fertile Crescent (Iraq, Afghanistan, and Pakistan). What does this have to do with me increasing my ability to serve God in the future? I have absolutely no idea but I’m sure that will be revealed in due time.

My faithful partner in crime has four weeks of school left before he heads off to Living Waters for the summer, along with another 100 things to accomplish before all is said and done. I’m so grateful because he deserves a break from all that the year has brought and I’m praying that he will be able to return to a state of normalcy before he enters his Senior year.

My sister-in-law is getting married to a dear friend of mine and for some strange reason I agreed to be responsible for handling the reception. I know it sounds easy enough short of the 100 man guest list. Fortunately, I have lots of help in place to help get this large task accomplished by  the 28th of this month. You might be surprised to hear that I believe in the institution of marriage more than ever and can’t wait to see what God does with these precious lives that are about to be fashioned together.

Other than that, it’s important to say that living the Christian life is all about one’s heart attitude because it may take time, but it’s likely that what’s on the inside of your heart will be revealed at some point. When you go through trials, it’s important to brace up for the understanding that people might not agree with you but that’s no reason to think that they are not aware of what you are thinking.

If there were any complaints from the disciples, Jesus chose to ignore them and go another direction. Be careful with your attitude when situations don’t turn out the way you had hoped. It’s necessary to share one’s perspectives, but never try to force your opinions on others, especially on the people you love.

Personally, I am incredibly grateful for the mercy shown to me by those around me over the years. After innumerable setbacks any one of them might have said, “I knew Gina would blow it. I told you so.” Instead, the people who really love me have only served to encourage me, believe in me and trust that I would continue to humble myself and receive the guidance and counsel that I would need to remain faithful in my walk.